Tuesday, 30 January 2018

Reading Notes 5/52: January



This week's book was far from light reading. Not that any of the books I have read this year were easy. What made Truman Capote's In Cold Blood so hard to read was that it is based on true happenings. Four people were murdered in 1959 without any reasonable motive. Murdered family was highly respected in local community and it took long for the people to get through and accept what had happened. Truman Capote went deep to the case and spent six years searching the happenings and people twined to it. Maybe because Capote gets so near to both victims and murderers, describing their life and thoughts in detail, makes this book so heavy to read. I am not a fan of crime literature and I have read maybe two crime related novels in my life. I am not curious to read crime and violence. I picked this book because it is a classic and brings up questions about good and evil and what is the purpose of punishment. I have read Capote's novel Summer Crossing and found the same melancholy and dark tones in this book.

5/52 Truman Capote. In Cold Blood (1965). I read the book in Finnish. First when people of the community hear about the murder of Clutter family they try to understand what motive and logic is behind it. The murders can not be comprehended with the logic of a healthy person. Clutters were hardworking, honest and highly respected in the local community and it was difficult to understand why anyone would want to harm the family. It rises the question why bad things come to people who don't seem to earn them. It is against what we are taught to believe. That when we lead a good lifestyle and treat our fellow humans with kindness we cannot be touched by any harm. Because when we choose to act according to shared rules and choose right instead of wrong we get a reward. As we know from our own lives and watching news every day life doesn't obey this system. This fact doesn't make us abandon the law. We still agree what is right thing to do and what is not allowed but considered crime or at least bad behavior against fellow humans. We have a conscience to guide us. That is why it is so shocking and almost impossible to understand what kind of person is behind crimes like in the Clutter case. People try to find a reason why someone has abandoned the common ways of acceptable behavior and violated the shared agreement about right and wrong. We need a special reason why it happened so we can continue believing. Because it feels unacceptable that crime like this could happen without reason as an act of randomness. 

Truman Capote describes the murderers' thinking process before and after the murders. First it looks like the murderers and the happenings of the murder night are two separate things because the murderers seem so normal. When they go trough the night's happenings they don't seem to understand what they actually did. They seem astonished by the way things turned out and ask themselves why they did it. They also ponder the consequences and if it is possible to get through. It feels like they share the same mindset as the local community shaken by the murders. They look after reason. They are taught to believe in right and wrong and that doing wrong doesn't go without punishment. There is a plot we believe: Do good and you will be rewarded. Do bad and you will be punished.

When the murderers' road trip continues their twisted mind begins to reveal. In one situation they speak kindly to a man they are about to kill and steal his car. They use acts that express empathy but don't seem to feel empathy enough to prevent doing what they have planned. Capote also opens murderer's life stories and their mixed minds begin to make sense. Especially Smith has had very difficult childhood and youth. Both men are divided, they have one side that works according to common norms and other one that is violent, without empathy and not in control. When they think through their acts they sound like they don't always understand what the other side is doing. Even the Clutter family murder is random in the end. They have planned to go and rob Clutters and maybe even murder them. Yet when murder night is described it feels like one action lead to another without clear plan. That night's interaction between murderers seems to play a big role instead of shared plan. Even though the murder's environment and atmosphere is a result of a long time plan it's execution was a  thing of a moment.

Both murderers were caught and got a death penalty. I found strong criticism against death penalty in this book. It is questioned what makes killing a murderer different from murder. Reading the murderers' backgrounds made me think that they had both difficult mental problems. They murdered four people and it cannot be undone.  It is shocking that something like that can happen. Still killing the murderers doesn't bring the ones murdered back. It is interesting how even the members of the local community, who had known the Clutters, don't seem to agree about the necessity of the death penalty for Smith and Hickock. Doctors and specialist are called to investigate whether the murderers had mental problems that influenced to their actions on that murder night. 

One of the crime's investigators, Dewey, says in the end of the book that murderers getting executed was not the actual closer of the case. It was when he saw young Susan, Nancy Clutter's friend, rush into her life. Maybe death penalty for murderers didn't bring peace to the victims and the community. More essential was to process what had happened, take time to heal and then concentrate to life. The community was shaken when it's norms and believes were questioned by the murderers' actions. But they got over the happenings and found again what they hold precious. 

Map behind the book is cut out from Finnish Seura magazine from 1.4.1977. I once found it among other cut outs between a book that I bought from thrift store. Heading shouts "Näin maailma parantaa rikollisiaan!" (This is how the world cures it's criminals!) In the map you can see which countries had death penalty in 1977. According to this map in 1977 there were only six countries that didn't have a death penalty, Finland was one of those six. Map has changed a lot, not even all the countries exist anymore. According to Amnesty International (Amnesty International / Death Penalty) when they began their work to end executions in 1977 (same year when that map was published) there were 16 countries that didn't have a death penalty. In 2017 only European country that still uses death penalty is Belarus.  


Friday, 26 January 2018

Nordic Style Bedside Shelf DIY


Bedside table is a classic and there is a reason for that. It is easy to leave glasses, phone, clock and books to a surface near a bed so those can be found in the morning or next evening. Small furniture in every corner then is a challenge when you try to clean the floors. Pretty wall shelves answer to the problem. The most beautiful pieces are like sculptures on the wall. Random items on a shelf might ruin the look so I came up with this idea to hide the items on the shelf. Of course you can see through the rows of wooden beads but it tricks the eye so that the overall look is organized.

For over an year now I have liked bare wood. It looks so beautiful after years of thick paint and ornaments. It has also calming effect as the wood feels soft and it has so many details when you stop to look at it. It also matches with colorful textiles surprisingly well when the wood in question hasn't turned too yellow but has still the shimmering white hue. This small shelf would also be a stylish decoration in the kitchen with few glass objects or jars in it. The basic idea how to make this shelf is simple, you just drill even row of holes to the front of the shelf and thread beads through.




Nordic Style Bedside Shelf DIY

You will need:
150 cm* 20 cm plank
6 shelf holders and screws
Wooden beads: 
48 beads in 35 mm 
64 beads in 25 mm
16 small beads
Strong cotton yarn
Glue

Saw
Sandpaper
Drilling machine and 3 mm drill
Needle
Pencil
Ruler




Step 1. Saw three 50 cm pieces from the 20 cm wide plank. Sand the ends.


Step 2. Drill similar holes to every piece to one long side with 3 mm drill. Because the biggest bead is 3,5 cm I put the holes in the corners 1,75 cm from side edges.  Also the row of holes comes 1,75 from the edge. The space between corner holes is then divided to seven even (6,64 cm) parts to get the points where to drill.


Step 3. Attach the shelf holders with screws 6 cm from the sides.


Step 4. Put the shelves to a wall in even row 20 cm from each other. Thread the beads through the shelves with strong cotton yarn. I put double yarn with a small bead in the middle so the top shelf got an interesting detail from the bead row. I also put similar small bead under the last shelf and made double knots. Then I put some glue to the knot and let it dry before I cut the yarn ends off. 



Tuesday, 23 January 2018

Reading Notes 4/52: January


4/52 Cheryl Strayed Wild. From Lost to Found on The Pacific Crest Trail (2012). I read the book in Finnish. I have seen the movie Wild that is based on this book several years ago. I loved the story about a woman who decides to clear her head from past experiences and quilt by taking an enormous challenge to walk 1770 km part of the Pacific Crest Trail. Book is based on a true story and it's writer has really experienced what is described in the story.

Following might contain some spoilers! When reading the book it was easy to live through the hardships Cheryl confronts on her journey. I felt exhausted like I would have walked tens of kilometers every day even though I was reading in my own sofa. She also describes food cravings like only a person who has had hard physical exercise can picture them. I don't even like hamburgers, chips and soda that much but walking the path with Cheryl I felt huge appetite for those things. 

The story is cathartic. During her walk she memorizes the hardships and difficult moments she has had in her life and walks those memories away. First she tries to make herself unbreakable, amazon queen, that survives everything and never cries. When the journey goes on she learns a different approach to live her life and see her past. Instead of seeing her past  as a series of mistakes and unmoral behavior she questions whether these actions are actually the ones that brought her here. Maybe there is no need to remember, ponder and feel quilt about things that have already happened. It is easy to compare oneself to others and their righteous life but actually the point is to accept one's own life as it is and abandon the thought about right ways of doing things. I began to think about the essence of life and how we consume our precious moments here. Is it actually possible to live life without wasting it? Always choosing what is accepted and morally right? Or is the essence of life to sometimes live wrong, waste time for actions that take us behind in the personal progress, ponder old things we cannot change, be still and stuck. Like Boris Pasternak writes in Doctor Zhivago: "Life is no stroll through a field". It might be unnecessary to try to wipe away bad choices as those are part of the life anyways. 

People's lives always seem more genuine, better, real and righteous. It feels like people move forward and put effort on things that make them accomplish their goals. Like how do they get everything right when it takes so much time for me to get one part of the life functioning? After all we know little about the people around us and their deepest wishes. Some might have the best life ever when you look at it but that person actually would like a totally different life. Maybe their dream job, partner and house are not what they really want in life. Even the happiest of people are ordinary and lost sometimes.

During the journey Cheryl also goes through her relationship with her mother who died young. Her mother's life had been tough and ended before she could fulfill her dreams. Cheryl's mother says on her death bed that she never got to be herself but only obeyed the wishes of others. Parents are somehow examples of the possibilities in life even though you would choose a totally different lifestyle than theirs. After all we mirror our choices to those of our parents. It is difficult task to find a balance in your own life after an experience like Cheryl's. It sort of pushes you to do over your limits to live your own life without wasting it.

Reading Strayed's life story was purifying. In the book she lets go from her heavy backpack also mentally by accepting her life and letting herself to put behind bad memories and phases of life. The most important thing is to head to the future as a person you have become and make choices that represent you not anybody else.



Monday, 22 January 2018

Trendy Terracotta





We don't have to take every home decoration trend by heart. If colors currently on trend are not our favorites we don't have to go and paint a living room wall with the latest shade. Most of the trends I just let go. They might be difficult to modify to a small apartment, don't collaborate with my personal style or are just too pricey/ time consuming to produce compared to the time I estimate they will please the eye. Every now and then a trend seems perfect to my home and add's some interesting detail to the entity. For example last year I was hugely inspired by mirror trends and made a contemporary style mirror wall. Mirror wall completed the style I have in my living room and makes it look bigger.

Quite often it is possible to apply trends in small scale. I browse magazines, blogs and social media and think, now that thing looks great, how could I take part to this? Maybe I could use a trend as an inspiration for table setting, small arrangement on top of a drawer or in a new pillow pattern. Just few people have money to put away all decor and furniture and start from the beginning every season. It is not even something to go for in my opinion. Home is home and built little by little with things that please us and we think are pretty and worth having. It should be a place we can rest in comfortable and aesthetically pleasing environment. Plus it is not ecologically clever to get bored to home decor that often.

When I find a trend inspiring I evaluate on witch scale I will take a part. Will I paint my walls or one furniture? Or is it few small objects that communicate that I am aware of a current style? I go through my cabinets and collect objects that could fit the style. I love this year's terracotta trend because it is warm, earthy and inviting color. At least at the moment I don't feel I need to apply it to my home in large scale but small items fit quite nicely with my bohemian style and deep colors. I changed some winter survivor plants to terracotta pots I bought from thrift store two weeks ago. Then I examined my cupboards to collect everyday items that are in terracotta color or near that. I don't keep every set of plates, vases and candles on show. Most of the everyday stuff is in a cabinet and used when needed. It would be unpractical to have all on show even though every set of plates/ mugs/ vases would be pretty. Trends come handy in choosing what items to have on display at the moment and which ones to put inside a closet to wait for next season.

Now terracotta trend is present in my small home in two arrangements. One on top of a writing cabinet where I have my green plants waiting for spring and light. The other arrangement is inside a turquoise cabinet that has glass windows. The inside of the cabinet is painted with okra and goes perfectly to the burnt and sunny terracotta palette. Items on show are all from my own cupboards, nothing new. I also took candles out from a drawer so I would remember to burn them before light summer days.

What trend would you like to bring in this season? Do you find terracotta inspiring color?

Happy and Inspiring Week My Dear Friends!

Sannu